Saturday, November 8, 2008
I think I ran the gamut of emotions before surgery. I am an anxious countrol freak by nature and the fact that this would be out of my control was something it was hard for me to grasp. I googled weight loss surgery and death rates, researched complications over and over. I worried myself insane, I was not worried about the lifestyle changes after surgery, I was worried about one thing, dying. The Friday before surgery I almost cancelled, I was overwhelmed with fear. I do not know how I got beyond it but I did. The day before surgery I was calm and at peace, the morning of I had expected to be a basket case but I wasn't.